I have asked Mr. Lehmann, I
have asked Mr. Carey, and said to them If it is true, let me go? I
will not make ridicule of your theatre. But they are so kind to me;
and Mrs. Grey also; she says that I have not as much _cheek_ as
Miss Burgoyne, but that Grace Mainwaring should remember that she
is a gentlewoman, and it is not necessary to make her a laughing
waitress, although she is in comedy-opera. I cannot please every
one, Leo; but if you were here I should not care so much for the
_briccone_ who _lies_, who _lies_, who hides in the dark, like a
thief. You know whether I sing out of tune, Leo. You know whether I
am so stupid, so very stupid. Yes, I may not have _cheek_; I wish
not to have _cheek_; even to commend myself to a critic. Ah, well,
it is no use to be angry; every night I have a reception that you
would like to hear, Leo, for _you_ have no jealousy; and my heart
says _those_ people are not under bad influence; they are honest in
saying they are pleased; to _them_ I sing not out of tune, and am
not so very stupid. If I lie awake at night, and cry much, it is
then I say to myself that I am stupid; and the next morning I
laugh, when Mrs.
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